Let's not forget ourselves, good friend..

FRIENDS ONLY!!

Wed, 11 Feb 2004 05:46:46 GMT

From now on, i am making my journal Friends only...

Yep, but just comment to be added if you are not already....

<<33&^!%@##*

oo baby

Sun, 08 Feb 2004 23:45:36 GMT

Dazed and Confused = one kick ass movie.

i cut my hair.
went to gasparilla...
it wasn't as fun as it has been in the past, and i do not know why. it was colddd and i didn't feel good, and i was only with ali fr a short amount of time. oh well.

always look on the bright side of things.

<<33%$!!##@*

Sun, 01 Feb 2004 08:21:55 GMT

You are CLARISSA EXPLAINS IT ALL. She is a rad
chick with absolutely no fashion sense. If you
are a guy and chose this... you are gay.

Which old school Nickelodeon show are you?
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i used to watch that show every day. whatever happened to Clarissa??? that show rocked!

<<33%$!@##*

grrrrrrr.....i'm gonna getcha!

Thu, 29 Jan 2004 21:14:25 GMT

With a taste of your lips
I'm on a ride
You're toxic
I'm slipping under
taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic?
And I love what you do
But you know that you're toxic

Baby, can't you see
I'm calling
A guy like you
Should wear a warning
It's dangerous
I'm falling

There's no escape
I can't wait
I need a hit
Baby, give me it
You're dangerous
I'm loving it

Too high
Can't come down
Losing my head
Spinning round and round
Do you feel me now?

***
With a taste of your lips
I'm on a ride
You're toxic
I'm slipping under
taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic?
And I love what you do
But you know that you're toxic
***
It's getting late
To give you up
I took a sip
From my devil's cup
Slowly
It's taking over me

Too high
Can't come down
It's in the air
And it's all around
Can you feel me now?

***
With a taste of your lips,
I'm on a ride,
You're toxic,
I'm slipping under,
taste of a poison paradise,
I'm addicted to you,
Don't you know that you're toxic?
And I love what you do,
But you know that you're toxic!
Don't you know that you're toxic ?
***
Taste of your lips, I'm on a ride
You're toxic
I'm slipping under
taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic?

With a taste of your lips
I'm on a ride
You're toxic
I'm slipping under (toxic)
taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic

Intoxicate me now
With your loving now
I think I'm ready now
I think I'm ready now
Intoxicate me now
With your loving now
I think I'm ready now

pepsi

Mon, 26 Jan 2004 05:05:15 GMT

so, i'm in the shower, and then, out of nowhere, the pepsi song came into my head. and then i got to thinking.....

what ever happened to the pepsi commercials?

picturessss.

Sun, 25 Jan 2004 00:52:09 GMT

me 'n my best friend, john.

just seein' if this works...
xo

somewhere over the rainbow...

Sat, 24 Jan 2004 19:52:50 GMT

Somewhere over the rainbow way up high
and the dreams that you dream of
once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow bluebirds fly
and the dreams that you dream of,
dreams really do come true
Someday i'll wish upon a star, wake up where
the clouds are far behind me
Where trouble melts like lemondrops
High above the chimney tops,
that's where you'll find me
Somewhere over the rainbow bluebirds fly
And the dreams that you dare to, oh why, oh
why can't i?

funny...

Thu, 22 Jan 2004 04:22:41 GMT

Funny things you learn from your mama
Like the way you throw your head back when swallowing pills
Funny things you learn from your papa
Like when you're talking you just can't keep your hands still
But that was now and this is then it never lasts for long
How I miss the good old days but I'm so glad they're gone..

Tue, 20 Jan 2004 22:14:47 GMT

i don't want to be seen as a pretty thing,
cause it's the pretty things we're always breaking.

guess what?

Tue, 20 Jan 2004 21:20:15 GMT

guess what?
my computer still doesn't work.
blah, blah, blah. anyways, i would like to thank jeff for letting me borrow his board. thanks. anyways, school= major bore. i didn't get to talk to people i really wanted to. and yeah. cut my hair again this weekend. uh huh..so now, it will be tomorrow in about 7 hours and 40 minutes. and then it will be the weekend in 3 days. i hope this weekend will be just as exciting as the last.
peace <3

surfing

Mon, 19 Jan 2004 21:28:22 GMT

today= surfing with jen= fucking freezing water, but it was still fun. although, my whole body was numb.

wtf?

Sun, 18 Jan 2004 10:59:51 GMT

YOU ARE MARRIED TO A WoODCHUCK!!!

what's YOUR deepest secret?
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Sun, 18 Jan 2004 10:16:32 GMT

sing me to sleep...

Tue, 13 Jan 2004 14:24:25 GMT

hey, guess what?!
i'm not grounded! yay. and we have off school on monday.
so this weekend is going to be rockin'!
call me.

Mon, 12 Jan 2004 14:22:12 GMT

bonne nuit.

holla

Tue, 06 Jan 2004 04:26:26 GMT

i have two eyes, one nose, one mouth, two ears, and one chin.
..one neck, two shoulders, two elbows, two wrists, two hands, and ten fingers.
..two knees, two ankles, two feet, and ten toes.
..and one heart.

school...tomorrow...fuck.

wow, it's 1:23...1-2-3

Mon, 05 Jan 2004 06:28:12 GMT

In The Last 48 Hours, Have You:
01. Cried: no
02. Bought something: no
03. Gotten sick: nope
04. Sang: I alllllways sing
05. Eaten: mmm hmmm
06. Been kissed: sadly enough, no.
07. Felt stupid: nah..
08. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: no, I told them.
09. Met someone new: in what kind of way?…a dating kind of way? (no)
10. Moved on: i guess
11. Talk to an ex: yes
12. Missed an ex: yes
13. Talked to someone you have a crush on: no, but I plan to in the very near future.
14. Had a serious talk: yes
15. Missed someone: yeah
16. Hugged someone: probably.
17. Fought with your parents: hell yes. Everyone knows that’s a constant happening.
18. Dreamed about someone you can't be with: haha...yah..

01. Best girl friend: ALLISON TAYLOR RITCHIE!
02. Best MALE friend: J-mo.
03. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: hmm, no
04. If no, current dating partner: no :-(
05. Hobbies: many, I come up with a new one every day.
06. Pager: well, i have a phone/ not a pager
07. Are you center of attention or the wallflower: in between:::depending on the situation
08. What type automobile do you drive: bmw…but I can’t drive it without a lisence
09. What type automobile do you wish you drove: I like my car, but I love the VW hippie vans. Kick ass.
10. Would you rather be with friends or on a date: my best friend.
11. Where is the best hangout: Starbucks.
12. Do you have a job: no
13. Do you attend church: forcefully..
14. Do you like being around people: yeah, unless I’m in a bad mood and want to cry.
Who*
01. Have you known the longest: Kellee Mckell
02. Do you argue the most with: my mother.
03. Do you always get along with: ali
04. Is the most trustworthy: I don’t trust anyone fully.
05. Makes you laugh the most: hmm..i would have to say..the kevster.
06. Has been there through all the hard times: no one has been there completely
07. Has the coolest parents: Jason’s mom
08. Has the scariest siblings: MEEEE
09. Is the most blunt: David.
10. Is the smartest: Jason, once again.
*Personal*
01. Who is your role model: I don’t really have one. It would have to be a mix of many people.
02. What are some of your pet peeves: when my mom tries to be my friend.
03. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: umm..i thought so at the time.
04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: yesss
05. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: nope
06. Have you ever lied to your best friend: not that I can recall…unless I played a joke on her…like when I told her that Kevin got in a huge car accident.. hahahaha. Good times.
07. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: oh, yes yes yes
08. Would you rather be dumper or dumped? I couldn’t say.
09. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": relationship….all the way.
10. Want someone you don't have right now: kind of.
11. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend: ha.. yes, very much so.
12. Do you want to get married: yes
13. Do you want kids: maybe a couple……………………adopted, that is.
14. Do you believe in psychics: pshhh, no way.
15. Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: I’m not sure.
17. What is your favorite part of your emotional being: I am a strong person, and other people don’t influence me.
18. Are you happy with you: yes.
19. Are you happy with your life: not at all.
20. If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be?: my mom.
*Current*
[ Current Clothes ] black soccer shorts, hot pink tank top. Yellow sportsbra.
[ Current Mood ] bored…extremely.
[ Current Music ] just the soundtrack of 4 younger siblings and two of their friends.
[ Current Taste ] my mouth.
[ Current Make-up ] the usual.
[ Current Hair] the usual, except shorter..i cut it yesterday.
[ Current Annoyance ] little kids.
[ Current Smell ] my house.
[ Current thing I ought to be doing ] being anywhere, but here.
[ Current Desktop Picture] a French comic strip picture.
[ Current Favorite Artist ] Jimmy Page.
[ Current Favorite Group ] Deathcab for Cutie/ the Faint… can’t decide.
[ Current Book you're reading ] I hate reading.
[ Current CD in CD Player ] Led Zeppelin.
[ Current DVD in player ] Billy Madison.
[ Current Color Of Toenails ] Dark red.
[ Current Refreshment ] I wish I had something to drink.
[ Current Worry ] not getting accepted into a good college…I feel like I’m screwing up my life somehow, and that time is running out for me to change it.

You are who you are.

Mon, 05 Jan 2004 03:42:01 GMT

Dear Diary,

today was very uneventful.
school in two days.

ta ta for now.

hello

Fri, 02 Jan 2004 09:01:39 GMT

one more day (hopefully) till i am free, and i can go out. but there's only 3 more days left of vacation. so basically my whole break has consisted of sitting at home.playing guitar.and computer games.not talking to anyone. grrrr, life is so boring for me right now. but happy new years. my new years resolution was to not get grounded any more...and it already failed, before it was even new years. wow. anyways, i think there is something wrong with me. i can't get to sleep any more. every single night i lay in bed, but cannot fall asleep. so i get up, and walk around my house, and then go turn on the t.v.... but i don't like watching t.v. because it gives me a headache. so i'll go back to bed, turn on music, and i will finally fall asleep around 5 a.m.. and then i wake up at approximately 2:30 the next day (or the same day...whatever) then i wind up with a headache all day, and i lay around doing absolutely nothing. exciting, huh?

anyways...so last night i get home, and our huge christmas tree was knocked over. i didn't even notice it at first, until my sister started screaming. i thought someone had broken into the house or something. so i walk into the room, and there was the christmas tree laying on the ground, and ornaments shattered alllllll over the ground. what a nice way to come home to your house on new years. so we spent the rest of the night cleaning everything up. it was great fun, i tell you.

the idea of me not going away to college for my first years has become redundant in my parents' heads. so now i have no hope to do well. i told them that i am moving out no matter what the fuck they say. i will be an adult. i'll get a full- time job, and i can live on my own. with my dear best friend, allison taylor, that is. but now i'm scared. i know what i want to do, but it is so hard for me to focus. focus on getting good grades, and that the time for me to go to college is getting closer and closer. it feels like time is running out, and that there's nothing thta i can do. ahhhh. i want to be smart.

i miss everyone!! i want to hang out, be part of the group again, and do fun stuff....grrrr. hopefully soon. i have no cd's to listen to, i accidentally left my cd case in ali's car. oh, no. justin was supposed to ive me the cd he made for me..way back when. and he never did. but he will in the very near future..or else.
i love you all.
xoxo

Mon, 29 Dec 2003 01:32:11 GMT

yay. gentri got a new digital camera.
i wish i wasn't grounded....like usual. blahhh
gimme a call. peace-

fresh, sorta

Sat, 27 Dec 2003 08:04:47 GMT

well,
it's a new day...
maybe i should try to start it off fresh and...
new.

fuck

Fri, 26 Dec 2003 20:54:12 GMT

why do i always get stuck in the middle of the WORST situations. and then end up getting hurt, and no one cares. i try not to make people mad at me, or upset because of me, but it hurts. it fucking hurts. i just want to be happy, and not worry about messy stuff like this. not get myself into it in the first place. avoid getting hurt. why do such unexpected/unwanted things happen to the best of us. what's wrong with me. maybe i should just back off. i wish it was that easy.

i want something constant.

Fri, 26 Dec 2003 15:35:45 GMT

new cell...
813.789.5769
call me if youreally want to.

Fri, 26 Dec 2003 15:32:19 GMT

fuck this shit.

Wed, 24 Dec 2003 07:27:17 GMT

i'm walking into my room, and all of a sudden i was mezmorized by the lights on the christmas tree. they are so pretty and bright. then i realized, i can't sleep. what's new. i don't know if it's because today i have been cut off from the world, and i just want to talk to people...if i'm just not sleepy...or if i just can't stop thinking. i often find that one of my bad habits is thinking too much.

i greatly dislike being grounded. it puts me in a bad mood. i keep saying to myself, only one and a half more years...one and a half. and i'll be out. gone like butta. for a looong time. and then i'll realize how much of my younger years i fucked up. being in trouble. making the wrong choices, and having to pay the consequences big time. it sucks. i'm so ready to take care of myself, by myself. i can do it. i'm a strong girl in a big world. people have no influence on me. i am where i need to be,so just let me go.

i want things to be good this christmas. i don't want to be sad, or in trouble, or lonely. i think i've found where i need to be. and i want to make everything work out.yes, there will be obstacles along the way, but i am going to get through it. i'll be fine. just me and my best friend. to the max. we'll be great. and we'll help each other out whenever we need help, like we always do. i don't know what i'd do without her.me and my mom got in another fight last night, and she made me cry. me, always standing up for ali, because my mom is a bitch. she doesn't understand.one and a half more years...

last night was really cool. hanging out with kaleigh for the first time in forever was so great. and hanging out with justin is wonderful, as usual. if there was only more to do here. espescially when you have NO money whatsoever. and just coupons. i found out that you can't do anything without having money. even having coupons for a free meal doesn't help.money, money, money. that's what it's all about these days. a small piece of manufactured green paper. pointless. that's what this world is. you live, and then you die.

it's crazy how people can change so fast. kind of scary. it's so hard to have trust in anyone. anyone at all. so many people are all about playing everyone. they're out for one thing, and they won't stop until they get it. it's so hard for everyone to tell the truth. i am completely honest, and i tell people what i think about them. they may take it personally, but i'ts just because i care. i know a lot of people may say that i'm stupid, or they just could care less about what i say. but that's what so many people in today's world need. the truth.

i have so many "friends", but only a few i can call my true friends. people that stand by me no matter what. people that don't say they're your best friend, and then they have a new "best friend" the next week. friendship is so important. i love my friends. the ones who are there for me. the ones that i know i can call at any time at all. the ones who know who i am , and know that i am me...not someone trying to be someone else. my friends are the ones that are honest with me, and tell me anything and everything. i love that. so a word to the wise, always be true to your friends, and completely honest. it's the only way to build a strong friendship.
i love you-
xo